Leaving Toby this summer… three weeks so far… has been extremely difficult. I cry every time I leave because I hear his cries. Yesterday, he even opened the front screen door and chased after me! I believe I now have received a small glimpse of what having a child will feel like. I love Toby… I cannot imagine having more love for a living thing, but I am told that it will happen. It is terrifying!
How can you love a creature with some much intensity that just thinking that they are not with you brings tears to your eyes? I cannot believe that I took my time in Florida for granted. While I was there all I could think about was being home… now that I am home, all I can think about is being back.
Now, it is not because I am not enjoying myself. I LOVE being able to spend so much time with Aaron, his family, and my family. Yet, I wish there was some way to have all the people I love in one place. I can never fully enjoy any moment because I am either without Aaron or without Toby. For the few days that I had both in one place… I felt complete. I cannot wait until the day that I can have that again… and you know what, I no longer am afraid to say:
I am a dog person!
